Welcome to my blog!
Well, when I was thinking of starting a blog, I thought, okay, let me go find some tutorials on how to build a blog. But then I was like, man, who cares, I can just write whatever the hell I want here. I've noticed this tendency - I wanna do EVERYTHING to start, but really I just gotta focus on content first, foundation before decor. and I need to just go wherever my interest takes me. I realized very recently that, for example, I'm a discovery writer who's been trying (and failing) to cram her thoughts into outlines, then wondering why my inspiration fizzles out so quickly. Nah, I gotta do what works for me, not my perfectionism. So here I am, just writing from the gut straight into the neocities editor. (I have notepad++ i just never use it LOL, makes me second-guess when I have to take the time to upload everything! This is my super messy canvas to just put out whatever the hell I want to, so I'm gonna use it!)
Anywhoodles, this site -- my creativity -- my personal goals -- they're all linked together, I think. It's about celebrating my interests, creating a space for my thoughts and ideas, honoring myself... including space for me to really vent out my feelings, but also space for me to build.
I've always put a ton of value on creativity - I grew up writing practically every day, and somewhere along the line I gradually slowed down and stopped, and I don't think I ever really forgave myself for it. so this will be my space to do everything and anything I wanna do. Not only is it important to me, it's also good for me!!!
well, enough about Mission Statements, now a little about what I'm up to.
Currently I'm listening to all of my music library on shuffle, including stuff from up to 7 years ago, sooo... a LOT in here that I'm not really that interested in anymore, haha, but sometimes u rediscover some gems. a new album I've really loved recently is girl EDM (disc 1) by Ninajirachi, I loooove edm and dubstep and this SERIOUSLY hit the spot for me. I'm always looking for new female musicians to listen to, and i think it's especially important in a genre as male-dominated as electronic!! I read somewhere that women only make up ~5% of all producers, and it was kind of insanely depressing. (I certainly plan on making a music page, with sections on my favorite albums and artists and music videos, and I would LOVE to make a page all about amazing women in music!! Maybe it could be a project/blog of mine... like this one music blog I love reading, which has "a bite of" articles that are all about specific artists w/ playlists included... ooh and i could make my OWN playlists... im starting to cook gang).
I've been feeling kinda moody lately, by which I mean I've been pretty much hanging out somewhere between "meh alright" and "[CENSORED]" for the last while. I hope I'm starting to pull myself out of it... but I've also been feeling very ~creative~ lately, which is pretty exciting for reasons I mentioned above.
I've been cooking a lot recently, and really starting to go kinda off-book & build my sense for what makes food taste good, which is pretty exciting! I never thought I had much of a talent in the kitchen until I started cooking more often a couple years ago. I'm lightyears behind some people I know, but I'm good enough for myself & to provide for my friends when I wanna, so I'm pretty content. :) I've also been doodling more often, especially drawing fun geometric patterns and horses (see tutorial (which doesn't even have images yet (whoops))). I've been coding this, obviously, which has honestly mostly been a challenge of aesthetics for me -- I feel like I have very little sense for aesthetic harmony, good color and texture combinations, etc.. I need some kind of art school boot camp. Trying to KISS (Keep It Simple Stupid) which is HARD for me because I love to elaborate exacerbate and elucidate on everything, but again, trying to do PATIENCE, directing my 'go go go' attitude at interesting and achievable tasks. I'm working on fixing my attention span, have grace and cheer me on.
Just took a break to draw a portrait of a character I got ideas for earlier today at work..I honestly rly like how it's come along, maybe I'll work on it more or try to draw other pics of this character later. For now I'm calling her Di (name not final). story idea is a secret... winks. I'd love to make a page all about my story & ocs sometime!! Guess I'll leave that up to my future self.